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Alhamdulillah...sudah berakhir hari ini.jumaat. sedang hari hari ku rasakan terlalu pantas berlalu. rasanya baru sahaja pandai meng approach kanak kanak yang amat gerun untuk di hampiri suatu ketika dahulu. jarum jam terus berdetik..detik detik waktu kian berlalu..detik detik tanpa lakaran memori..hanya illusi minda..sekali lagi aku hanyut dengan angan2.. petang petang begini, pulang dari kuliah dan mata serta kepala yang dirasakan terlalu berat memaksa diri untuk terasing sebentar. mengasingkan diri di waktu menghampiri senja, merelakan fikiran bersama hidupan alam..tenang!! aku melontarkan pandangan pada langit..aku yang terbuai dengan kicauan burung burung ciptaan tuhan.tenang!! terleka juga dengan putaran kipas syiling yang sangat pantas, bagaikan pekak dengan riuh rendah sahabat2 di ruang makan rumah..lagi tenang!!
Alhamdulillah..
murahnya air mata mengalir bila duduk bermuhasabah..
mengenang dan merenung segala kebaikanNya kepadaku..
lagi lagi waktu begini,emosi ini tersentuh..
Siapalah aku..
Apalah sangat yang ada padaku..
Setakat manalah pengabdianku..
Namun tiada pernah Dia menjauhiku..
Kekadang aku terasa malu..
Namun tetap terharu..
Ya Allah, indahnya tarbiyahMu..

Cinta hari ini pengharapan esok

SemaLam yG berlaLu, HaTi keliRu menTafSir mimPi yG tAk beRkEsudaHan, Takut pAda SetiAp perJalanan, tAhu betapa kuranGnya kEberkaTan, rApUhnya iman mEmbawa kPd keCINTAan pd dunia. Hari Ini, kuRaSakan terlalu panjang, menanti SAAt ajal disaat kEmanisan dlm keRinduan, sIapalah aku untuk meraih CINTAMU TUHAN, namun aku tahu, dEngan satu pErjuangan, aKan KAU bayar dengan janji-janji tErdaHulu sejak azali, sEbesar mana sangatlaH perjuanganku YA TUHAN, naMUN aku yakin KAU lbh mengetahui taRaF kemampuan, YA TUHAN bantulah aku, kuRniakanLah aku ilham untuk terus istiQAmah dLm perjuangan daKwahMU, JadikanLah aku sAlah sEorang yg membanTu dlm Kebangkitan agamaMU, seSungguhnya seluruh jiwa,raga,hati DaN JASADku kusErah padaMU. EsoK yg mAsih dlm kEsamaran, naMun hamparan dOa berharap pd KejayAAn, sEmoga dunia diSinari Cahaya barakahMU YA TUHAN, moGa haTi sEtiap inSan tiada Kekacauan, sEmoga sYurga yg KAU kurnia menJadi bertambah pEnghuninya, bErkat pemcapaian DUNIA BARU ISLAM..

Hidden pain

seriously.feel priceless?a little bit maybe.lost credibility in the midway of journey.mix up with something that is uneventful?maybe.. bermonolog dalaman lagi.lagi.lagi.dan lagi.non stop.tears come out.comfort me at this moment. again..hurting someone,is not best. keep in silence is best? much more better i think. wanna be alone. in my room with my old blanket cover me up under this bed.. with the dusty boxes.seriously,wanna be alone.alone.silence.trial.happiness is far.stress.obese. gurauan berakhir dengan kecil hati.better to be silent.thus, no more pain inside. Allahuakbar!! maafkan aku jika telah membuatkan hatimu terluka.maafkan teman. takbest.takbest.takbest. stopcrying. plis. when im tired, i close my eyes. ~

WE ~ never be apart!!

syasya & me syasya, sya, izzah

We have chose this path...make it worth..

we have gone this far...the journey still long in front..

keep smiling..don't end up with sigh.. here we go..insyaallah!!

we will be a very good muslim doctors soon!!

keep fighting..as no more give up to think of..

what to do?

Salam wbt.. Alhamdulillah..masih berada dalam iman dan islam..masih bernafas..juga bertatih dalam kematangan usia..masih berusaha mengumpul kudrat dan daya semangat yang agak blur dua menjak ini..oh allah..Yang sentiasa dekat dengan kami..Ya Allah..kami lemah..kami mohon kekuatan..untuk terus bertahan. minggu kedua. paeds posting. lemah. speechless. ase bodoh. sangat. sejak 2 3 menjak ni, ase down merajai.knp ye? entahlah..mungkin kerana kerana we are not perfoming well. sapekah we? uitm student... sejak 2 3 menjak ni, terdengar di hujung hujung telinga yang graduan uitm esp in regard of medical profession, perform badly during housementship.until they have to extend the postings as well.cuak tak??? erm..we are bad in front of masyarakat..in front of doctors..we are bad... lemah tak rase?? lemah. kenapa? timbul lagi kenapa dekan nak ambik ramai student?? what he thinks of? which one better...quality or quantity? teringat pesan kakak usrah " yes, we learn medicine..until we do not have time to learn ilmu laen2"...beliau teruskan..no!! we are learning ilmu Allah..even its medicine.itu ilmu allah.jangan cakaop kita hanya kejar ilmu dunia. what we have to do is do the best.!! ye..do the best.do it with heart, Ya Allah, bantulah kami.. di saat terasa kerdilnya kami, di saat kami merasakan kami betul betul di bawah.. berilah kami ketengan jiwa dan fikiran agar kami dapat mempertimbangkan ia dengan kewarasan akal yang terbaik.. wassalam.

Paeds posting

Salam wbt..

i dont know why.it seems like everyday worries come together. creeps all over my mind. do not know why it's seems harder to get courage to stand up. i don't know why i have changed. towards the deep meaning of lazy and tired.
its totally different..its the fifth posting now on. the posting of neonates, infants, young children, older children and adolescent..
its first week..week whenever i fall asleep earlier than usual..less effort for success..
hope its only this week.
its week of getting well with them..to get knowing with them..to be expert of examining them..EFFORT MORE,TALK LESS.

they are suffering..even they are very small to go through it..O Allah..make them strong, make their guardians well to hold on until the moment of wellness come to them.insyaallah..

O Allah..make me strong too.make the path easier for me to go on..never let the courage to deam off.

we gonna sit the final exam after this posting..pray for us~~~

A good friend

Salam wbt..
a very good friend to have ever.....

dear friend, im not really good in writting..nor in making special poems..but i do really appreciate you as my friend..All this while, we have been almost 4 years insyaallah knowing each other.maybe i know u better than urself.
i still remember..at first we met i haven't talk much with u..same as u. but now, it looks like a magic when we get along very well.
today..is ur birthday. a very special day

" we all have grown up..cheers urself up..don't be sad"

" As we have grown up, there is less things to laugh about"

" wish u..selamat panjang umur, murah rezeki,berjaya dunia akhirat, be friend forever..semoga berjaya!!"

I wish u happy birthday and may Allah bless you

to my dearest friend ....Sakinah Mazlan...live well & perform well......